So much on my mind

So much has happened since I last blogged. Last night I read a blog on WE that one of the girls was taking basically a fistfull of a mix of pills and was hoping to die. I have seen several posts like that and generally the friends get them to come back and they are ok. I had talked to the girl before but I wasn't close with her. I saw her blog moments after she posted it. I went to try to catch her on chat to talk to her and see if there was anything I could do and maybe get her to change her mind, to throw up the pills, anything. She was already offline by the time I found it 3 minutes later.
   This morning her mother posted on her WE page that she was found dead in her room this morning. This hit me hard. I have known a few people who have died from their eating disorders. Although she over dosed I still attribute her death her her ED. The misery it causes. The head games it puts you through. So I just want to say Rest in Peace to this girl.
I'm also worried about another of my friends going through a hard time.

I met my neighbor/childhood friend's new baby today, well he was in his carseat but I still saw him. He was adorable! Makes me wish it was time for me to have a little one. Gotta lose the weight first though and get married.

School has four more weeks to go and I have a major case of the "I dun wannaaaas" The work is now all becoming due, more is being piled on by the day and I'm falling behind. I'm hoping this weeked I will play catch up and everything will be ok.

Weight is stationary.

The dog peed on my school bag...guess she was mad that I walked the cat today instead of her.. bitch.

Additionally I have cramps of death. My ovaries feel like they could burst into flame at any second.

Also the bf has ignored all of my texts and my 1 call today. Not one word from him and I'm feeling rather insignificant.

I wanna give a shout out to my new follower ;)

Blog again tomorrow probably!! I hope the week gets better!!